1. See the good in your past. There will always be things that we wish had never happened; there will always be bad memories and things that we regret. But they are part of who you are – so accept that they have happened and celebrate the person they’ve allowed you…
“Because sometimes people say things and they mess you up so bad that you feel like your entire body’s actually been hurt, that you’ve been ran over by a tank or put in a wind tunnel and then brutally spat out again. And it hurts more than anything else you’ve ever experienced, because you gave them the power to do that to you.”—Perfect teeth, Chapter 27. (via fineapplepizza)
How long are you planning to hold grudges against me? It has been over two years, just stop. I have been through so much because that was what triggered everything. I am not asking you to understand because I know you won’t since you are stubborn and you don’t care about my life. I wanted to die and I landed in the ER that night, you know because you were the first to find out I wanted to kill myself. Hell, you even cried your eyes out while the doctor, nurse, and therapist tried to help me. If that did not open your eyes about me, then I do not know what does. It hurts me everyday when you are so cold with me and you pushing me away. It hurts me when you finally told me you are sick of seeing me. It hurts me when I come crying to you for help and you did not even care. I cannot let you win. You can win once you find me dead.
“I’m afraid I’ll never finish college. I’m afraid I’ll finish college with student loans I can never pay back. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree and won’t be able to find a job in that field. I’m afraid I’ll get a degree, get the job I dreamed of, and hate it.”—A Mental Illness Happy Hour listener whose list of fears matches mine four for four. Glad I’m not the only one. (via thishaskilledme)
“Sometimes people try to destroy you, precisely because they recognize your power — not because they don’t see it, but because they see it and they don’t want it to exist.”—Bell Hooks (via forever-and-alwayss)
Isn’t it weird how people change and grow apart and stop talking and then one day you see this person who you swore you were going to be friends with forever and you can barely think of a thing to say and then it finally hits you that somewhere along the way your friendship dimmed and you will probably never be close to that person again. I think that’s one of the saddest things I’ve come to terms with lately.